i LOVE him

A few days ago,we keep on quarreling about small matters. I do not know what is wrong with me... Maybe its because as time goes by,when its a long time didn't meet situation,things goes wrong and misunderstandings keep appearing in between us. But its all started with me... I'm the one finding excuses and do not believe what he is telling me. I know i shouldn't be like that but i couldn't control myself. And one thing i cannot believe myself is doing is : I'd even say that i'm thinking of want to break up! I know i love him very much... More than loving myself... But maybe this is not the right way to love some one... Loving someone like this will only make both of us feel like this relationship is about to end already. So,maybe i should not hold him so tight.

He came back yesterday. Before he even reach home, I got angry again. (wt fish) I'm sooo childish! I can't believe it! His mobile has been barred because he din pay the bills. So i need to call him to know where he is. When i finish working, I straight call him to ask him where is he. Not yet reach home,he say. He is only about to reach the place that i stay. My mum ask him to alight at my house but he say that his mum is waiting for him at home. For this,i got angry. I'm so damn stupid. (actually i'm only scared that i can't see him because normally my family and i spend the whole chinese new year at pantai remis.) But little do i know that as soon he alight at his place,he rush to pay the bills to call me and saying that he wanted to come my house. At that time,i'm still angry with him so i talked to him like he is the one who made the mistakes! My mum heard this and ask me why do i talk to him like that but i do not answer.

An hour later,he reach my house. I am so damn happy to see him that i forgot all my anger and even wanted to hug him. But my mum is there,so,you know la... Need to be patient. I smiled like there is no tomorrow...! haha... He is sweating ... Its hot outside,i gave him a tissue to wire away all the sweat. He say he missed me very much. I miss him too. My mum chatted with him a while ... (that time,i'm also listening but pretending that i'm watching tv) I showed him a tee shirt that my mum bought for him for CNY ... After that,when my mum is not around , i mean when she went in to sleep , we hug each other tightly...

At around 5.45pm,we went out for a walk... Really like a loving couple. At around 6.15pm,he went back already...

I saod i love him... I will always love him!