Life gets busier... He is busy with his studies as he is facing his exam week. As for me,i'm busy with my work. So damn tired! Everyday the same thing is going on,wake up,go to work,come back from work,then watch tv,tuition classes again... But i didn't forget to keep in touch with him. Only that,i didn't hold him so tight already. I gave space for other people too,as i do not want to hold him so tight.
14th February... Its Valentine. He is in University... But he doesn't forget to call me. He called me at 23:58pm , 13th February. He say he wanted to spend the first moment of Valentine with me. Haha...
Guess things are moving on as time goes by... Not long after this results will be out and i need to plan for my own future...
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Saturday, January 24, 2009
i LOVE him
A few days ago,we keep on quarreling about small matters. I do not know what is wrong with me... Maybe its because as time goes by,when its a long time didn't meet situation,things goes wrong and misunderstandings keep appearing in between us. But its all started with me... I'm the one finding excuses and do not believe what he is telling me. I know i shouldn't be like that but i couldn't control myself. And one thing i cannot believe myself is doing is : I'd even say that i'm thinking of want to break up! I know i love him very much... More than loving myself... But maybe this is not the right way to love some one... Loving someone like this will only make both of us feel like this relationship is about to end already. So,maybe i should not hold him so tight.
He came back yesterday. Before he even reach home, I got angry again. (wt fish) I'm sooo childish! I can't believe it! His mobile has been barred because he din pay the bills. So i need to call him to know where he is. When i finish working, I straight call him to ask him where is he. Not yet reach home,he say. He is only about to reach the place that i stay. My mum ask him to alight at my house but he say that his mum is waiting for him at home. For this,i got angry. I'm so damn stupid. (actually i'm only scared that i can't see him because normally my family and i spend the whole chinese new year at pantai remis.) But little do i know that as soon he alight at his place,he rush to pay the bills to call me and saying that he wanted to come my house. At that time,i'm still angry with him so i talked to him like he is the one who made the mistakes! My mum heard this and ask me why do i talk to him like that but i do not answer.
An hour later,he reach my house. I am so damn happy to see him that i forgot all my anger and even wanted to hug him. But my mum is there,so,you know la... Need to be patient. I smiled like there is no tomorrow...! haha... He is sweating ... Its hot outside,i gave him a tissue to wire away all the sweat. He say he missed me very much. I miss him too. My mum chatted with him a while ... (that time,i'm also listening but pretending that i'm watching tv) I showed him a tee shirt that my mum bought for him for CNY ... After that,when my mum is not around , i mean when she went in to sleep , we hug each other tightly...
At around 5.45pm,we went out for a walk... Really like a loving couple. At around 6.15pm,he went back already...
I saod i love him... I will always love him!
He came back yesterday. Before he even reach home, I got angry again. (wt fish) I'm sooo childish! I can't believe it! His mobile has been barred because he din pay the bills. So i need to call him to know where he is. When i finish working, I straight call him to ask him where is he. Not yet reach home,he say. He is only about to reach the place that i stay. My mum ask him to alight at my house but he say that his mum is waiting for him at home. For this,i got angry. I'm so damn stupid. (actually i'm only scared that i can't see him because normally my family and i spend the whole chinese new year at pantai remis.) But little do i know that as soon he alight at his place,he rush to pay the bills to call me and saying that he wanted to come my house. At that time,i'm still angry with him so i talked to him like he is the one who made the mistakes! My mum heard this and ask me why do i talk to him like that but i do not answer.
An hour later,he reach my house. I am so damn happy to see him that i forgot all my anger and even wanted to hug him. But my mum is there,so,you know la... Need to be patient. I smiled like there is no tomorrow...! haha... He is sweating ... Its hot outside,i gave him a tissue to wire away all the sweat. He say he missed me very much. I miss him too. My mum chatted with him a while ... (that time,i'm also listening but pretending that i'm watching tv) I showed him a tee shirt that my mum bought for him for CNY ... After that,when my mum is not around , i mean when she went in to sleep , we hug each other tightly...
At around 5.45pm,we went out for a walk... Really like a loving couple. At around 6.15pm,he went back already...
I saod i love him... I will always love him!
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Weird,Bored !
Last 31st December 2008... Last minute decision,i went to Kuala Lumpur with my family (grandma,aunt,and 2 little cousins ) ...
I thought it will be an enjoyable one since my cousin brother last promised that he will bring me go around KL...But never do i know,it turned out to be a weird and boring trip. (I mean, gosh ! thats the first time i actually get to go out to KL without my parents' surveillance but it isn't an enjoyable one.)
I reach there at about 8pm on 31st Dec,thinking that i will have the chance to go for the COUNTDOWN for New Year...So i alighted the bus with a smile on my face,finding for my relatives who suppose to fetch us to their house.Not long after we found them,we went for a dinner...Hmmm...the food is quite good but i dun eat much...Our relatives,only 2 which is already old and jobless,treated us then take us to their house.Reaching the house,i contacted him (cousin brother) but he say he will be late...Because his sister which is also my cousin sister drove his car.So i waited for his call ... till 11.15pm ... I call him,the answer is still the same...He can't make it!
I will miss the countdown for this year! Arrghhh! I feel really angry and sad. I come all the way to KL is only to do the countdown but now i couldn't.I tell Mizan about this. Hmmm... *details,Mizan is my boyfriend or should i say my husband-to-be?Guess what...He say he want to welcome the new year with me! Haha... I'm sooo happy! We chatted till 12.15am year 2009. We wish each other Happy New Year and hope our relationship will get better and stronger year after year...After that,we both went to sleep already... Good Night!
***To Be Continued***
I thought it will be an enjoyable one since my cousin brother last promised that he will bring me go around KL...But never do i know,it turned out to be a weird and boring trip. (I mean, gosh ! thats the first time i actually get to go out to KL without my parents' surveillance but it isn't an enjoyable one.)
I reach there at about 8pm on 31st Dec,thinking that i will have the chance to go for the COUNTDOWN for New Year...So i alighted the bus with a smile on my face,finding for my relatives who suppose to fetch us to their house.Not long after we found them,we went for a dinner...Hmmm...the food is quite good but i dun eat much...Our relatives,only 2 which is already old and jobless,treated us then take us to their house.Reaching the house,i contacted him (cousin brother) but he say he will be late...Because his sister which is also my cousin sister drove his car.So i waited for his call ... till 11.15pm ... I call him,the answer is still the same...He can't make it!
I will miss the countdown for this year! Arrghhh! I feel really angry and sad. I come all the way to KL is only to do the countdown but now i couldn't.I tell Mizan about this. Hmmm... *details,Mizan is my boyfriend or should i say my husband-to-be?Guess what...He say he want to welcome the new year with me! Haha... I'm sooo happy! We chatted till 12.15am year 2009. We wish each other Happy New Year and hope our relationship will get better and stronger year after year...After that,we both went to sleep already... Good Night!
***To Be Continued***
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Kinda Weird
I will be going to Genting Highland later but i do not know whether i am happy or sad. I do not know how to describe my feelings at the moment. Its like kind of happy because i can go out to play but kind of sad too because i'm going but not with the person that i wanted to go with!
I am still hoping that he will go but deep down,i know,this will not happen. I know he loves me very much...Even without him telling me,i know that...
He wants me to enjoy myself,play hard after STPM as this is what i always tell him before this.Although he is not going with me,i'm going to play hard and also take care of myself.I will not let him worry about me as he had worried enough!
And guess what?I'm watching 'Armageddon',one movie which is nice according to him and its this movie which makes him like the song 'I Don't Want To Miss A Thing'by Aerosmith... (silly enough,i hope he will watch with me)
I do not know why.To me,whatever about him is good and almost everytime,its the best!
Dar,when you see this,maybe you will smile,as this is what you always do...Laughing at me and make me feel embarassed in front of you but this is what i'm going to do,in order to not to make you worry about me.
In the future,we will be able to go for a vacation together.You had promised me...
I Love You,Dar...
~ForEveR~
I am still hoping that he will go but deep down,i know,this will not happen. I know he loves me very much...Even without him telling me,i know that...
He wants me to enjoy myself,play hard after STPM as this is what i always tell him before this.Although he is not going with me,i'm going to play hard and also take care of myself.I will not let him worry about me as he had worried enough!
And guess what?I'm watching 'Armageddon',one movie which is nice according to him and its this movie which makes him like the song 'I Don't Want To Miss A Thing'by Aerosmith... (silly enough,i hope he will watch with me)
I do not know why.To me,whatever about him is good and almost everytime,its the best!
Dar,when you see this,maybe you will smile,as this is what you always do...Laughing at me and make me feel embarassed in front of you but this is what i'm going to do,in order to not to make you worry about me.
In the future,we will be able to go for a vacation together.You had promised me...
I Love You,Dar...
~ForEveR~
Friday, December 5, 2008
Thinking this way,Am i right?
When its all about him,i really do not know what to do.
~~Exam is over,my family and i am planning to go Genting Highland for a 3 day 2 night vacation. My mother invited him to come along as there is still space for 3 peoples in our car. Other than him,i also invited his 2 sisters. They say they will ask their mum's permission but at last ended up ... they can't go.
I'm sad...He say he will try his best to persuade his mum but when i called him and ask,he is telling me some other things.He is the only guy in the family,and the family need him very much!These are some of those that he told me. But how about me?
Did he ever thought that i need him too? Did he thought that me,as his wife,also need him as much as his family need him?
I do not think so...He don't even thought of that,maybe...
After i heard that he cannot go,i cried...I know,i'm very stupid.
The thing is,before STPM,i already asked him many times and he said okay but now?What answer that he gave me?
He always say that i comes first but when the real situation comes,i do not know how to comment on these...
Haiz...Maybe the time is just not right for us.We will be able to get through all these obstacles,i believe!
I really do HOPE i can go out with him,for a vacation,spending some valuable and precious times together.If its not this time,it will be the next time.
The time will come,this is what he said to me.
~~Exam is over,my family and i am planning to go Genting Highland for a 3 day 2 night vacation. My mother invited him to come along as there is still space for 3 peoples in our car. Other than him,i also invited his 2 sisters. They say they will ask their mum's permission but at last ended up ... they can't go.
I'm sad...He say he will try his best to persuade his mum but when i called him and ask,he is telling me some other things.He is the only guy in the family,and the family need him very much!These are some of those that he told me. But how about me?
Did he ever thought that i need him too? Did he thought that me,as his wife,also need him as much as his family need him?
I do not think so...He don't even thought of that,maybe...
After i heard that he cannot go,i cried...I know,i'm very stupid.
The thing is,before STPM,i already asked him many times and he said okay but now?What answer that he gave me?
He always say that i comes first but when the real situation comes,i do not know how to comment on these...
Haiz...Maybe the time is just not right for us.We will be able to get through all these obstacles,i believe!
I really do HOPE i can go out with him,for a vacation,spending some valuable and precious times together.If its not this time,it will be the next time.
The time will come,this is what he said to me.
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