Kinda Weird

I will be going to Genting Highland later but i do not know whether i am happy or sad. I do not know how to describe my feelings at the moment. Its like kind of happy because i can go out to play but kind of sad too because i'm going but not with the person that i wanted to go with!
I am still hoping that he will go but deep down,i know,this will not happen. I know he loves me very much...Even without him telling me,i know that...
He wants me to enjoy myself,play hard after STPM as this is what i always tell him before this.Although he is not going with me,i'm going to play hard and also take care of myself.I will not let him worry about me as he had worried enough!

And guess what?I'm watching 'Armageddon',one movie which is nice according to him and its this movie which makes him like the song 'I Don't Want To Miss A Thing'by Aerosmith... (silly enough,i hope he will watch with me)

I do not know why.To me,whatever about him is good and almost everytime,its the best!

Dar,when you see this,maybe you will smile,as this is what you always do...Laughing at me and make me feel embarassed in front of you but this is what i'm going to do,in order to not to make you worry about me.

In the future,we will be able to go for a vacation together.You had promised me...

I Love You,Dar...
~ForEveR~